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ISSUE THREE | NOV/DEC

all through her pregnancy and we hear about and it sounds nice,
Evaluating her labor, until she has her baby. it sounds like something that we
Breaking is not a breaking to kill The word comes from a Greek want to have but it’s a process
you it’s a breaking to rebuild you. word meaning, handmaiden. I of acquiescing your own desires
I got married because the inner now know I am the handmaiden and asking God to grant you
child in me needed someone to of the Lord, I don’t have plans of His desires for you. I have been
protect me and love me and care my own, they’re His plans. Family humbled and I’m still a work in
for me and fight for me and that is was very deep to the core of who I progress I believe.
the truth. No woman should ever am and He’s giving it back to me,
go into marriage because of that, just like in the book The Dream Hope: I want to encourage women
it will not last. You should go into Giver. After asking for the man’s that have walked a path that is
it because you love the person dream, The Dream Giver gave it similar to mine, don’t give up,
and because God has said, this back to him but it was a lot bigger however bleak it sounds, however
is the person. I think what I have than he thought. You see, when I dark it looks however scary and it
learnt is there’s a calling of God was praying for my family, I was is scary because you’re dealing
on my life, I wasn’t supposed to praying for my husband and my with deep dark issues. Now I
get married. I think that has been children; what a selfish prayer. understand when He says you’re
a desire of God but the obstacles Now when I look at it I think God not wrestling against flesh and
that have come my way whether is giving it back to me as part of a blood but against principalities
they were from myself, or whether much bigger family of God. and powers, those days will
the enemy put them there were come but have hope. Jesus came
so that I would be distracted from Any final words? He overcame the world and it’s
my purpose. I live on purpose now Patience: The things of God don’t possible there’s hope and may it
with understanding. come overnight. You need to learn be that for such a time as this that
I have shared my own story.
how to be patient.
I find myself being asked by women
who are in similar situations and Courage: I didn’t have my own
want to leave their husbands and courage, all I had to do was
walk away. They expect me to ask God and He says do not be
endorse it and I can’t because I dismayed, do not fear I am with
can only walk my journey. But I ask you, have courage but courage
them questions: Have you prayed and confidence can only come Editor’s Note: Jacky is one of the
about this? Are you sure about when you know the person that Trustees at Toto Care Box Africa
this? Have you thought about you’re putting your confidence in. Trust. The Trust works to provide
maternal care packages to moms
your children? Ultimately we’re all
accountable for the choices that we Humility: This is something that and their newborns to cater for
make. But nothing is wasted with the first 28 days of life. We plan
God and that gives me hope. So to share more about them in later
I don’t know what my final picture issues of Msingi Afrika Magazine.
will look like, I stopped trying to Toto Care Box Team:
figure it out, I’m just happy to keep From Left Chris Columbus Wanjiru, Angela Kavila Kwinga (Trustee), Lucy
walking, day by day to stand in the Wambui Kaigutha (Founder & Trustee), Elizabeth Kirumba, and Jacqueline
place of His presence knowing Wairimu Gachihi. Absent Catherine Wanjiku Gachihi -Mueke (Trustee) and
that He’s the Master Creator. Helen Wanja Kariuki (Trustee).
When I stopped fighting to be
apologized to by everyone who
I felt owed me an apology, it
did happen. Just not by them.
Someone in a place I was studying
took my hands, and said to God
that he stood in the place of a
man and he apologized for what
a man has done to His daughter.
This total stranger did what I have
yearned to hear from a man.

Now I’m a Doula, which is a woman
who stays with a pregnant woman

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