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Surrender

We got to the hospital, and shortly after, we saw the doctor. She was
happy to see us well, eager to understand what was going on and to
explain to us the dangers of an ectopic pregnancy. She was especially
concerned about Zara and Huru being left without a mum that young.
Huru was one year, two months at the time.
She turned to my husband and asked in jest, “I thought you said we
had finished this story (of having children)?” We all giggled. I quickly
jumped in and told her, “I am reminded of a story you shared with
us about how God gave you, the guru in all things family planning,
pregnancy and all, not one but two babies (twins) while on the coil! So
surely you know we plan then He laughs and here we all are! Yeye ndio
kusema! (His Word is final!)”

Then she turned and asked me, “Where is the scan? Who told you you
have an ectopic pregnancy?”
I told her where I had gone and the abdominal pains I had been having
since my period had returned in February, the first one since November
2016! The pains would be so bad that in April I had gone to see her so
she could rule out liver or kidney problems from the ultrasound. How-
ever, before showing her the ectopic pregnancy scan results, I asked her
to first do the scan herself and tell us what she sees.

I got onto the gurney and in less than a minute she said, “You are preg-
nant and this baby is where they are supposed to be!” I interrupted her
train of thought and broke into praise, “Daddy only You do the things
that You do the way You do them!” “… Unless you have a heterotrop-
ic pregnancy,” she said. She checked the left fallopian tube, where the
ectopic had been spotted. She said there was only a little fluid in the
pouch of Douglas, which is common and did not worry her based on
what she could see. She said she could see the gestational sac… about
four weeks along.
I got down from the examination table, and we sat across her desk. She

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