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FAITH STORIES
the ultrasound and she told Mama (she has a medical What was your
me that I might need fertility background) and she said, “The relationship with like God
drugs when we were ready to hormones are trying to decide through this?
conceive. I told her we weren’t whether you are pregnant or This first pregnancy came
ready to conceive. She said, not.”[laughs] So I went back to 6 months into our marriage.
“This thing is unpredictable, as the gynae because I wanted to In our first year of marriage,
early as you can, start. Come confirm the results with a scan. Daddy took us through a
back when you’re pregnant or I got the ultra sound and found journey of unlearning and
ready to get pregnant.” out I was pregnant! We went learning many things; and one
Before I left her office, I asked from, ‘Oh my goodness! We of those lessons was about
her what would have happened might never get pregnant and naming. He took us through
if I was on any family planning if that is how you see it Daddy, a journey where He reminded
and she told me, “Oh that we will still love you’ to ‘Oh my us how He had changed my
would have complicated things goodness! We are pregnant… husband’s name from Muema
more…your chances would but we’re not ready!’ It was just (difficult, stubborn, hard) to
have been way slimmer.” Then a roller coaster of emotions. Mwema (good) in 2013 and
I understood why God had [Laughs] how that once He did that,
given me that instruction about That was one of those things that had previously
family planning. This right pregnancies where every day been blocked for him, suddenly
here is why I insist, there is was a faith journey for me. Not opened up. He was teaching us
nothing as important as training knowing whether you have a that even in the Bible, children
up your child to hear God for live embryo or not, because were not called their fathers’
themselves from the day they you’ve been told that some of surnames and that though we
are conceived; because you the complications that come have been disconnected from
cannot teach them everything, with PCOS are that you are these generational things, we
but the Holy Spirit does, can three times more susceptible to continue taking them up by
and will. That for me has been miscarriages, you have a high taking the names of our (fore)
my saving grace every day of chance of pre-eclampsia - the fathers yet everyone has their
my life. reports are just fear-packed. own journey and purpose.
My husband’s reason for Where others do one or two Names have so much power
wanting to wait was that, scans, I did eight or 10 scans and destiny in them, it’s not
financially we were in a deep through that pregnancy. Every even funny.
valley. When I got home and single time I woke up and was God had already given us
told him the doctor’s report, the like, “I don’t feel” or “I feel”, it our son, Jezreel’s name in
conversation went from, ‘we was, “Okay! Let’s go.”I saw 2012. I thought he would be
want children in two years’ to the doctor every two weeks! our firstborn; I was convinced
‘we may never have children? Although (because God…) I was carrying a boy. Jezreel
Let’s start now!’ [Laughs] This every time I went for these means “The Lord Himself has
thing is not in your hands, my scans we found that we in fact sowed.” God gave that name
friend. It was a very heart- needed to go. For instance, when He was teaching me the
wrenching night and couple on one of those visits, when I lengths He is willing to go to
of days. During that period, I was at 18 weeks, we found out communicate to us His heart
got a cold that had me down that I was having contractions. (love and redemption) and
for a few days. After that I I was put on bed rest and that He is coming very soon.
started feeling a little odd and given medication to stop the Contrary to my expectations,
for some reason, my husband contractions. That pregnancy God gave us a beautiful
insisted that I needed to take taught me ‘In Him we live, daughter first; Zara Thandiwe
a pregnancy test. At this point breathe and have our being’ and eight months later,
my period was over 50 days on a whole new level. It’s not Jezreel was conceived. Then I
late. I did the test and it showed in your hands at all; stay in His understood why He had given
two very faint lines. We shared hands and rest. me Jezreel’s name principally.
the news first with another None of our children would
mum who I call Super Dear have ever been conceived at
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